Finger prick blood test readings are a funny thing. Not funny ha ha but funny strange. It’s 5.30 am and my fasting reading is 8 and last night’s reading was 6.9. This is absolutely brilliant for me considering they are normally in double figures! The aim of course is for the both readings to be between 4 and 7. To get to this I have to increase the amount of insulin that I take. At the present moment I take 70 mM and should be increasing this to get the readings down.
When I first started taking insulin in May 2010 my readings would fluctuate each day. The first week the lowest was 11.7 and the highest 17.5 between 13.5 and 10.5 higher than it should be at the highest reading. It didn’t improve and I reached on one day 29.8, due to illness I think. By the end of June my evening readings where still relatively high averaging for the week at 18.8.
I find it difficult to get my head around how by taking the tests at different times I could get different readings even if what I did or ate was the same as the day before. Or if I took a reading at 5.30pm when I arrived home after work it may read 13.3 but by 7.30pm when I am ready to eat it would be different again! I know that different foods affect the reading whether they have sugar in them or not.
The increase in insulin mildly concerns me. It really should concern me more but there has always been this ‘unbelief’ emotion and thinking that stops me being that concerned about it. Considering the possible implications of diabetes I should be more concerned but I am not.
What drives this search into learning whether it is possible to reverse diabetes type 2 is not the thought of amputation, going blind or having a heart attack. It is how I feel physically and emotionally. For me what matters is my quality of life now not in the future. After all I may not have a future! So today is what matters. How I feel, the energy levels that I have, how emotionally I feel. One of the side effects of diabetes is depression. I do notice a change in my emotions with a higher blood sugar reading. I feel that I am bordering on manic depression some days but the lower the reading the more able I feel to deal with life and all that brings.
It is clear that in order to gain a newfound vitality of life the areas to look at is diet, exercise, and emotional well being, all the areas that we are told to change. The difference is the stance we come from. The medical profession stance is about maintenance and keeping it under control as best we can. My stance is to reverse it and gain vitality of life once more.
